Barbara Ward-Finneran
Get out of your own way... Life is about making a comeback.
It’s all to easy to decide to put off or wait till next week what needs to be done. In many cases what is long over due. I can not put my finger on exactly when I decided that I had had enough. I know I heard the voice in my head constantly saying you have to stop. An emotional eater who was torn with every spoonful of ice cream knowing in essence that I was killing myself with every bite. Yet spiraling for over two years with not being able to be in control for more then a few weeks at a time. Wondering often, “When exactly did I lose control of my life?!”My 40th birthday was approaching in the spring and I knew I did not want to start the next phase of my life with my five foot one inch frame carrying a morbidly obese amount of weight. I prayed for the courage and strength to commit to taking my life back. One day I looked ahead on the calendar to see when exactly my 40th birthday hit. And, there was the sign I prayed for, April 12, 2009 was Easter Sunday. Easter, the day of resurrection. The day of new life. The tears streamed and I knew I’d had enough. Time to reclaim my life and find the girl who felt alive when reaching for goals and chasing her dreams. I looked at the tired, dull eyed reflection in the mirror and said out loud, “I want more and only I can make that happen”.
